“As long as you stay true to exactly who you are,
you will be rewarded in ways
you can’t even imagine.”
~ Ellen Degenerous
Go back to school?
Buy a condo?
Seems to me if one keeps pondering the same things, perhaps one should do something about it.
This is the year I’d like to open myself up to having a relationship.
I mean for real.
I have been single for 10 or 11 years.
Yep. You heard me right. I am like a born again virgin.
I have had some dates over the years, but I have not been intrigued enough by anyone to want to do anything about it.
There for a while I even had the opportunity of being “Mrs. Robinson.”
I tried it out a couple of times, but it didn’t work for me. It is not my style, although, it was extremely flattering.
I have become quite comfortable being single.
And it took a while, but now those closest to me are comfortable with me being single too.
I think that shift happened in the last few years.
It is just a given, Lisa is single.
Before my dating hiatus, I had two long-term relationships, back to back, with one year off in-between.
My exes wanted what most people want – marriage, kids, etc. I didn’t.
There are other reasons the relationships didn’t work out, but the underlying theme was simple – we each wanted different things and envisioned different futures.
Both of my exes are married now, and I believe one has children.
I recently found out that my first ex waited to get married until the fall of 2014.
That brought me comfort.
He took his time, like I have.
He is the one that got away in my world.
I wouldn’t change anything. Things did not work out for a reason.
But he is the one I have cared for the most in my life.
As for me, I have made a couple of false starts of maybe wanting to date again.
But now I think I am ready, now as in on the other side of tax season.
Last month I was extremely busy with a January 31st deadline.
I remember waking up one morning at 3:30 am thinking about work – I need to do this, I need to do that, this needs to changed and oh, don’t forget that other thing!!
And then I thought – Holy Cow! I need to get a life!!
And that is when I started thinking about how nice it would be to be in a relationship again.
So on the other side of tax season, I will seriously get out, get involved and meet new people, because I could use more friends too.
I was finally going to drive my Harley Street 500 motorcycle into work today.
I planned it out. I would be taking as many back roads as possible and only be on the highway briefly.
I was up very early too, so I could get on the road well before rush hour.
Once I made it into work my plan was to walk, walk, walk AND walk some more because I am currently in three different FitBit challenges.
I am winning the first challenge by a pretty good lead.
I am winning the second challenge, in this moment in time, by a slight lead. I had that one in the bag too, until someone seems to have gotten inspired.
I am in 2nd place in the third challenge, battling step by step with the person who is currently in 3rd who really seems to want to be in 2nd place. This same said person is also the one battling me in the challenge I mentioned above.
At this point neither of us has a shot in hell of winning the first challenge.
The leader of that one is waaaaay ahead of us. I did tell her tho, let’s do this again next week and I will give you a run for your money! hahaha
From last Thursday to this Thursday I had a really crappy, stressful and upsetting week.
I didn’t talk with anyone about it, mostly because those I know would have said – You did what??? You said what??? Are you bleeping crazy???
Obviously, I was not in my right mind and I allowed bottled up emotions, disappointments and frustration to come bubbling out.
Rest assured all is well now, so no need to ask me about it. hahaha
But the ultimate disappointment is that my Harley would not start this morning and I don’t know why.
I have kept the battery charged (last time that is what killed the bike). I have even shared my toy and had a co-worker over to ride it to juice it up. And so he could practice his skills since he recently got his motorcycle license.
As I trudged back upstairs fully geared up, I was sooooo disappointed.
Then I started thinking, I really need a dude in my life to maintain my bike. I’ll ride it and he can keep it maintained.
In reality, I just want someone to show me how to keep it maintained. If you show me, I can do it. If I read it, I am like, huhhh?
And then I remembered, hey, I have a credit for a motorcycle class and guess who are in motorcycle classes????
DUDES and TEACHER DUDES!
So I signed up this morning and will be training and doing drills on a Harley like mine on Sunday for 2 whole hours!!
And I sure as heck am going to try to sweet talk someone into helping me.
Wish me luck!
Oh, this pic, this is the only thing that did go well for me last weekend. I got my hair highlighted.
This pic also represents me telling myself ~ I’ve got your back babe, no matter what.
And we will find someone to help us one way or another! hahaha
Late 2009 through 2013 have got to be some of the darkest days of my life.
I hope that was my mid-life crisis because I do not wish to experience and feel like I did during those years ever again.
I broke. I mean I broke like I never dreamed possible for me.
Since then I have been building my life up again, day by day, year by year.
I have worked really hard all in areas of my life.
The ole broken foot last year set me back in the health and fitness department, and I am unclear about how I can get that side going again as I head into tax season with a newbie and for some reason challenged helper.
That really concerns me.
This morning. In this moment in time. ALL IS RIGHT IN MY WORLD.
I did it. I finally did it. I got my Hey Dude license plates back!!
I have been trying to get those personalized license plates back since 2010!
My signature thing is – Dude.
Hang around me long enough and you too will be using the term frequently.
When I had the plates before, they made people happy and were conversation starters.
Complete strangers would walk by me and say – Hey Dude. And I would be like – Hey Dude.
I remember a couple of times driving on the interstate and cars would pull up beside me giving me the thumbs up or rolling down their windows yelling – Hey Dude!!
Smiles and happy.
That is how I felt.
I had those plates at a high time in my life before, and now I have them back!
I worked very hard for those plates.
I deserve them.
And I will be enjoying them for the rest of my life.
Yep. I am going to be in my 80’s or maybe even 90’s driving around with Hey Dude license plates on my vehicle.
Granted I will be driving 5 miles per hour and people will be yelling – Hey Dude Get Out of The Way!!!
But I will be hard of hearing and remembering the good old days as I flash them my thumbs up and big smile.
In this moment in time, I am in heaven.
I am sipping a margarita with an iTunes playlist playing softly in the background as I read some RSS FitBit articles, review a couple DailyOm emails and watch a few Ted Talks about business and personal growth.
Then a thought hit me.
I do not know many people who are able to experience this peace.
People I know…they have a spouse or they have children or perhaps a roommate.
They are pretty much never alone.
Me. I like being alone and it is quite peacefully right now.
My essential oil diffuser is running, giving off a lovely lavender scent. It also sounds like a small trickling waterfall.
On Friday, I shut down my computer at work when I left so there would be no way I could remote in to do or check……anything.
Not that anyone asks me to do anything outside of the normal work week hours. It was an internal urge….I wanted to stay on top of things and get ahead. It wasn’t working. So I let it go.
I also deleted both my personal and work email accounts off of my phone on Friday.
Then today I went one step further – I totally turned my cell – OFF.
I let go of the fear that something bad would happen if I shut my phone off and was unreachable…because I remembered, everyone I know has a partner to help out if something happens.
This weekend I became a quitter. On purpose.
For one weekend, I quit!
Work, family, friends, anything…I quit knowing that all would get along fine without me.
I must admit, quitting feels pretty good, and um, peaceful.
I can read. I can write. I can paint. I can ride my motorcycle. I can love on Kennedy and Mozzie. I can lounge. I can rearrange my home. I can watch self-created TV show marathons on Netflix.
In short, I can straight up wallow in my heaven, do anything in the world that I want, happy as a lark, and re-energize myself.
AKA, I will have more to share with others on the other side.
My wish for you is that you too can experience this little slice of heaven for yourself one day.
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