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Lost In Space…

I feel somewhat lost right now.

Not lost as in down and depressed.

Lost like ~ well hells bells, I didn’t see that coming.

Um.  Now what??!!

I feel lost in two areas: me & work.

In regards to me, I have so much work to do health wise.

Holy schmoly.  Where to begin?

I FINALLY received some good news from my doctor this last Wednesday.

On my own, I managed to drop my cholesterol & sugar numbers a lot without medication.

My physical last year did not go well blood work wise and my doctor wanted to put me on medication.

I said ~ No.  Not yet.  Let me try to fix this on my own first.

She was not happy with my decision, and I said ~ This is my life, and only my vote counts.  I am going to try this on my own first.

My latest blood work shows that I have course corrected my cholesterol & sugar numbers (not perfect, but pretty damn good progress) on my own, enough so that my doctor does not see the need for medication at present or the near future (if I continue on this course correction path).

But.  It does appear that I may or may not be Anemic.

They took more blood at my Wednesday appointment to see if perhaps the lab made a mistake.  I hope they did.  I am still waiting to hear back.

Plain and simple now, I need to lose weight.

Honestly, that IS the KEY factor to everything.

If I could go back to my normal weight, @108 – 110, then all of these health problems will most likely be resolved.  Read: will be resolved.

Everything has gone downhill in the health department since I broke my foot in March 2016.

With said broken foot, I became immobile.  I hadn’t broken anything before and to go from semi-active to immobility, well, that scared the hell out of me.

So I took extra care to rest on the weekends, to repair and restore.

And um, if you do that for 2 years and eat, rest and enjoy a margarita or two on the weekends, Hello Weight gain!

For me, now, it is a matter of rewiring how I spend my time off.

My weight gain isn’t because of age or a drop in my metabolism (at least not yet!), it is 100% my own doing and therefore fixable.

If you use FaceBook you too receive those reminders about what you have posted in years past.

Um.  I personally would kick my own ass if it were possible for ever complaining @ weighing 115 pounds!!!   Geez, the young are so damn stupid. hahahaha

And in regards to work, I feel like I am getting paid really well to do 1/2 of what I used to do.  I don’t like it, but it is my fault for voicing my thoughts.  Management has lessened my work load to help me not feel overwhelmed.  Personally, I feel demoted and not quite sure what I am supposed to do and what I am not supposed to do sometimes.

I don’t know how to un-ring this bell.  To go back to how things were is not possible. I tried and that was nixed.

I may or may not be too ambitious for my own good, and a little ahead of my time (quite often!).

Nonetheless, I want to create something really great for myself.

So many friends have told me over the years ~ Just marry a guy who is crazy rich and spend his money to create whatever you want.

Small problem, I want to create something great on my own.

I may not ever reach the heights I dream of on a daily basis, but, for better or worse, whatever I achieve will be solely because of M-E.


PS ~ I don’t even use Twitter or any other hash tagging sites.   I just love my own “clever” hash tags. hahahahaha


50 Is On the Horizon in My World!


I am turning 47 this year. #2018

Holy mother of….

I don’t have a problem with 47.

I do however; have a problem with the big 5-0.

I never thought I’d get there.

As in, in my mind, I guess I thought I would always be and feel and look 40 something.


(one half) * (1 century) = 50.

Holy goodness.

A half of a century, I will have been alive for a half of a freaking century!!

D@mn.  Are you *bleeping* kidding me?

Geez.  2018 just showed up a minute ago, and now here we are and it is January 28th.

Time needs to slow the hell down!

Side note.  One way to slow down time is to disconnect completely from social media and smart phones and the likes.

I have managed to do 24 to 36 hour and slightly longer “fasts”.

I am working my way up to one month!  #For Real.

You would not believe how much you can get done, or how long your days are when you disconnect completely and focus on the now.

Like I said, I’ll be 47 this year.

That gives me 3 years to really continue to focus on growing my knowledge base before I reach 50.

  • Health/fitness wise.
  • Business wise.

Holy crap!  I just saw a commercial for AARP.

In 3 years, I will be eligible for AARP.

OMG.  That totally sucks!!  Are you *bleeping* kidding me?!

AARP should REALLY update their eligibility minimum age based on today’s life expectancy span!

But, I digress.

I know age and getting older bothers people.

It bothers the hell out of me.

I listen and talk with many people who are honest enough to say… WHAT THE HELL?! THIS TOTALLY SUCKS!!!  And then some.

I cannot speak for anyone else, but for me, I don’t like aging so quickly because there are still things I’d like to accomplish in my lifetime, on at least two fronts specifically, plus sooooo many others.

I am currently focusing on these two things for the next 3 years….

  • Health/being crazy fit for “my age”.
  • And business.

I have so much to offer, and I have so much to give…. I just need to disconnect, focus, and get on with it.

Maybe by doing so, I will actually enjoy turning 50.


And that is a mighty *BIG* maybe!!!hahahaha
















I Love Food & I Love Cooking!

I love food and I love cooking…

But only because I can actually cook now.

                                                      I Heart Cooking

I am on my 3rd week of using the food delivery service – Hello Fresh.

This is the most awesome, tasty, easy and simply program around.

At least that is my experience to date.

Look what I have learned how to cook over the last 3 weeks…..

                                      Mojo Drizzled New York Strip Steak

                     Cauliflower Pancetta Mac-n-Cheese (Minus the Pancetta)

                                            Crispy Top Parmesan Chicken

                                                    Sweet As Honey Chicken

                                                      The Pat Lafrieda Burger

                                                      Thai Pork Stir Fry

                                                      Buttered Up Steak

                            Thyme And Honey Pork Chops (Minus the Thyme)

                                        Winner Winner Chicken Orzo Dinner

Not only that, I totally hook up co-workers with left over’s, which has been much appreciated…to date.

Recently I started utilizing the ability to skip some weeks.

This is an awesome option for two reason – (1) I can try out what I have learned thus far on my own and (2) the selection available do not always include enough of what I am willing to part with my money for to try.

I do not need breakfast, but thank you.

And I do not need fish or duck, nor do I want to cook any other parts of chicken except for the breast.

Yeah. Definitely no, but thank you anyway.

Overall, my Hello Fresh has been an excellent experience!

I have learned how to cook soooooo many things in the last three weeks that it is unreal.

If I were in a serious relationship, that dude would fall madly in love with me because these meals are great and thus make me a spectacular chef!!

So.  If you are in a rut, or if you are like me and want to learn how to cook – Hello Fresh has brought me such happiness and delicious, beyond words, meals.

Totally worth the investment!

Per me, a 100% satisfied customer.

Food is life.

Might as well make it right.




A Shift in Focus

A lot has happened in the last two months.

I withdrew from my accounting certificate classes back in June because I was really behind due to taking care of Mozzie.

A “W” (withdrawal) looks a heck of a lot better on my transcript than an “F.”

I lost the money too.

That was a very hard and an expensive pill to swallow.

The school wasn’t going to refund my money nor transfer me to the next semester of classes due to a cat emergency.

Believe me, I looked into it.

I also spent the following upcoming three classes’ and textbooks worth of money on Mozzie’s care.

The necessary ultra sound alone cost $600.

So poof, my scholastic goals went up in smoke rather quickly.

To be honest, I was mad at myself for even beginning that goal prior to beginning an even more important goal that could change my life.


He is purrfectly good now and I do not regret spending any money on helping him.

He has IBS and I give him a pill every other day.

Although neither of us enjoys the process, he is doing well and we are dealing.

The more important goal that could change my life was (and is)….my health.

I knew that I knew that I should have made that my focus before taking accounting classes.

I firmly believe that without your health, you have nothing.

I learned that first hand when I broke my foot, an eye-opening experience for me.

First time I had broken something and became somewhat immobilized.

Yet I put my hopes of excelling at work and finally making six figures ahead of everything else.

Wrong move.

I am administrative.

There are tons of accountants on staff and new ones coming on board with far more knowledge and that have time in than I could ever hope to have…so my health really should have been my first priority.

Now by default, it is.

A blessing in disguise if you will.

As of this last Monday, I started a 90 day fitness program by Jillian Michael AND I have an accountability partner.

We check in daily.

I also signed up for the Hello Fresh food delivery service.

Simple recipes to cook and the food and recipes are delivered to my front doorstep.

I am finally going to learn how to cook!

Hello. Fresh.

I tried this set up once before with Blue Apron.

But the recipes, although really good, were a little bit too fancy for me so it did not last long.

Check out Hello Fresh.

Now this is simple cooking in my book!


My last physical with my doc was SO not good.

It was the worst one that I have had in my life to date.

My doctor said – what (the hell, she wanted to say but did not) has changed in the last 3 years????

You went from 115 to 130 to 150 in three years.

Now things really need to change and go the other way.

Beyond my broken foot that took me from 130 to 150, all I could come up with for her was….

Um, my commute and stress and being less physical due to less time and energy.

As she pointed out…I am in control of me.

Not only that, but I am responsible for me.

My health really should be ultra important because without it, um, nothing else matters.

In order to get myself back on track, I realized that I must make the following changes – diet and exercise.

Now.  I have a dedicated accountability partner in place who wants what I want, both for herself, as well as for me.

I really hope that I am only half way done with my time here on earth.

That being the case, it is time that I take my foot out of the grave and begin living life so I can look back one day and say –

I did well, I am happy and holy smack am I hot!

I would not be me without that last comment.

Just sayin’.


My wish – health for all.















Hot Damn!

I got my Harley back on Tuesday.

Last week, they took my bike to the shop to change out the battery, and to do a state inspection.

Turns out they only had to charge the battery for me, which saved me a lot of money.

The first few months of this year it was cold, and um, I was tired because of tax season, and um, I didn’t ride.

There was one nice spell during those months and my co-worker and his wife came over.  I let him ride it while I ran errands, um because (a) I went through a class with him and saw how he handles riding a motorcycle and (b) I share my toys.

I have another friend who I am going to take to a parking lot and remind him how to operate a motorcycle.  He doesn’t have a motorcycle license, so in a deserted parking lot at the crack of dawn we shall remain.  But I am happy to show him and let him give it a go on my bike.

Anyway, when my co-worker rode it, he charged the battery up right nice.

After that, I would at least go down and turn on the bike and let it run for a while thinking that would give the battery juice.

Um. No. According to the Harley dude, that’s why my battery died…..because I drained it!

I don’t have an electrical outlet in the garage where I park so I can’t keep the battery charged when I am not riding it.

Now to keep it alive and healthy, I need to ride it about 100 miles a week.

No time like the present…..so I took my Harley out for a spin this morning!

Wait it gets better.

After making my second lap of keeping it safe aka not venturing out too far…..I thought – eff it! Ride mama, ride.

And I did.

I zipped all over the place, all up in traffic.  I have never done this before but, the only way to get used to something is to – Just Do It.

I drove around for 45 minutes this morning and I loved every single moment of it!

My day was already complete by 7:30am.  The day cannot get any better than this!

And what a great stress reliever.

I am happy as a lark.

For my visual friends, here’s how my riding will evolve in pictures….

Me: Getting My Morning Rides In!


Me: Catch Me If You Can Sucker!!

Hot Damn!

Oh, Rolling Thunder will be in the DC area at the end of May.

This year I might finally pull off riding on the GW Parkway with all the other motorcycles in town.




School is in Session

Well not really.  Not yet.

My classes start a week from today on Monday, May 22nd.


My boss agreed to let me try working extended hours Monday – Thursday, and taking off Fridays (since our non-tax season hours are 8:30am – noon on Fridays).

Notice the word try.

As in this is not a completely done deal yet.  So, I will work hard to ensure that I stay on top of my duties.

One less day of commuting and one more day to study = would help me tremendously not to burnout on any fronts.

Although my official school classes don’t start until Monday, I’ve been studying audio books like mad for the last year, with a concerted effort for the last six months.

I don’t only listen to the audio books during my commutes to and from work.  I listen in the morning, I listen in the evening, I listen while cleaning, I listen while walking, I listen while sitting out on my porch.  In short – I listen, listen, and listen.

When I am tired of listening or need a break, I turn to music or silence for a while (even days) until I am ready to hear more information.

I’d like to share what I have been listening to over the last year.

Perhaps you will find something of interest.

I started with one book which led me to another, or I would read or hear about a book and I just followed the path.

The first two are my absolute favorites because they are personal life stories, and I am very interested in these people’s lives and how they got to where they are today.

I hope you find something of interest.



My deepest desires?

To never stop learning.

To never think I know all that I need to know.

And to always keep an open mind and be willing to at least explore.



I Think I Am Going To Be Sick

Principles of Accounting I

Intro to Computer Applications & Concepts

Intro to Business

I just signed up for the first three of seven classes I need to earn a Bookkeeping Certificate.

And I just paid for it too.

I think I am going to be sick.


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