Memorial Day Weekend I did A LOT of thinking and research on so many things.
I am constantly thinking, evaluating, learning and bent on taking control of my life in order to create a life that brings me….what?
First and foremost, fulfillment.
Then tack on some peace, gratitude, love, pride, awe, and happiness.
I would put love first.
Well I guess I do.
Love for myself.
And I absolutely love my cats too.
I love people too, especially my family.
Sometimes I have thought about adopting a child, a little girl.
I would love to play a role in shaping the next generation, giving her all the tools that I have had to learn (and am still learning) daily.
Number one, I cannot afford to raise a child on my own.
Number two, I am still working on myself.
As for romantic love, in the last 8 years, I have only found two men intriguing.
One is married, as in long time married and he loves being married, with kids, whom he also loves very much.
The other has never been married, but he is deeply ingrained in his ex’s life and with her family too.
Both are a (BIG) no no for me.
I am not saying I had a shot with either of them, nor have I acted on my attraction(s).
I am not stupid.
Karma is a bitch.
I tested it once when I was younger and “stole” someone away from another.
They weren’t married. I would not do that. I’d rather be alone.
I ended up in a long-term (6 years) relationship with him, and it was one of the most damaging and unhealthy relationships for me/to me.
I haven’t dated anyone since.
So I have focused on my career, which at present does not have as much traction as I was hoping for at this point in my life.
But all is not said and done.
Like I said, I have been doing A LOT of thinking and research on so many things.
Not just over Memorial Day weekend, but for months now.
I have visions. I have dreams. And I have great potential.
I just need the right mentor because along side of all of this, I have an insatiable appetite for learning and growing.
These days I am thinking outside of the box.
I want to be in the C-Suite.
I thrive in smaller firms.
I have a lot to learn.
I am willing to put in the time.
God willing I still have 20-25 work years left in me.
And somewhere out there is the perfect match.