I have a bit of anger going on right now.
Most would not associate me with anger. At least I hope not.
Not unless you have been in close proximity and seen or experienced it firsthand. But let’s be honest, it doesn’t happen all that often, but I will admit, when it does, it can take a little while to get over it. hahaha
If you dig deeper, anger is only the top layer, and for me, it is covering up stress, fear and frustration.
And I cannot wait for a reset.
I have so much tension in my body that I am seriously considering adding a punching bag to my home gym.
I don’t like feeling anger/angry either. Talk about not being a nice person, nor does it feel good. Not really my cup of tea.
But sometimes it happens and sometimes it gets stuck.
So I need some time away to reset me, my mood, my thoughts and my world.
Luckily, I am only one and a half days away from such a wonderful retreat/reset. Time off for the holiday season.
I am going to exercise.
I am going to deep clean and deep declutter my home. And although most would not consider my home to be cluttered, I want to get my home down to things that I honest to goodness use. If I don’t use it, and I haven’t in a long while = donate it and let someone else enjoy it.
I am going to see some movies too!
I haven’t seen a movie in the theater in such a looooong time and I looooove going to the movies.
I want to see these two films…
SECOND ACT – Jennifer Lopez
Movie Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPzrK5yLIoM
A STAR IS BORN – Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper
Movie Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bo_efYhYU2A
I do have some comic relief in most of my days which helps.
That’s the gift my co-worker and I give each other.
I don’t know that a day has gone by in a very long time that we haven’t laughed together.
To be honest, that is probably the only reason we are friends! hahahaha
Just kidding. He takes care of my motorcycle and that’s a BIG plus! A gal has to keep her priorities straight. hahahaha
But I help him too. By his own admission, he is not a very good gift giver. So, I helped him buy his gift for our office holiday luncheon on Friday, along with two other co-workers I helped separately, so now I know 4 of the 12 gifts being presented. Surprise! hahahaha
I also helped him buy gifts for his wife, and then I even stayed late after work last night to help him wrap them. This is their second Christmas together, and this year he’s better prepared and really wanted to make her happy by having presents under the tree for her to gaze upon until the big unwrapping several presents day.
Recently we were taking a walk and I was talking about a problem I was trying to resolve and said, “You know, I can be like a bulldog and I am not going to let go until it is resolved.”
He said, “You are SO right! You ARE like a bulldog.”
I said, “Shut up Chihuahua.”
And we both laughed so hard because he can be quite skittish, and I scare him often, half the time without trying.
I sent him the following pic….Subject line read: SUPER Chihuahua!
And his nickname from me has since become – Chihuahua!
Personally, I just love saying the word. hahaha
A couple of nights ago we were leaving the office at the same time.
This happens at times, but we rarely leave the parking garage at the same time.
Um. That is because I have scared him on a couple of occasions so he tries to avoid it at all costs.
He drives like a granny. He’ll tell you so himself.
I don’t. And he will tell you that as well.
So there were, um, a couple of times he has been tooling along down the road oblivious to everything and I have either pulled up beside him or behind him without him knowing, and then I slipped my gear shift into neutral and REVVED my engine!
I wish I had a video of his reaction. I can’t even explain it….something along the lines of…eyes wide open as saucers, physically bracing one’s self for impact, utter surprise and fear and then the realization that it is only me.
Thinking about it now makes me laugh. I am so going to hell for this one. hahaha The few times I have done it, I laugh all the way home, crying and unable to breathe. Yep. I am going to hell.
But this is really, really mean, so I only do it once every blue moon as to not give him a complex. Plus I don’t know how many strikes I have left for doing this before I really do go to hell or karma comes knocking on my door.
So for the reasons mentioned above, this is why he very much prefers I leave first, and why it was unusual that I found myself right behind him the other night as we both pulled out of the parking garage at the same time.
Since I have been in a foul mood, I gave him his space and in no way tried to intimidate him.
We drove to the end of the lane and entered the traffic circle, me far behind him….and then he proceeded to make a second loop in the traffic circle and to his utter surprise, I followed suit.
And then we were both laughing so hard and driving around in circles until he finally exited onto the ramp and I followed, far, far behind him because this day I was giving him his space.
When it is free and clear I do pass him eventually, because I can not drive that slow. By I do so by being many lanes over and not right next to him.
It is silly things like this that help end a rough day on the right note, and why I should be right as rain on the other side of my retreat/reset long weekend.
I wish you all a Happy Holiday, and I am happy to report I will not be a Grinch and rain on anyone’s parade! hahaha