Category Archives: Human Nature

Lost In Space…

I feel somewhat lost right now.

Not lost as in down and depressed.

Lost like ~ well hells bells, I didn’t see that coming.

Um.  Now what??!!

I feel lost in two areas: me & work.

In regards to me, I have so much work to do health wise.

Holy schmoly.  Where to begin?

I FINALLY received some good news from my doctor this last Wednesday.

On my own, I managed to drop my cholesterol & sugar numbers a lot without medication.

My physical last year did not go well blood work wise and my doctor wanted to put me on medication.

I said ~ No.  Not yet.  Let me try to fix this on my own first.

She was not happy with my decision, and I said ~ This is my life, and only my vote counts.  I am going to try this on my own first.

My latest blood work shows that I have course corrected my cholesterol & sugar numbers (not perfect, but pretty damn good progress) on my own, enough so that my doctor does not see the need for medication at present or the near future (if I continue on this course correction path).

But.  It does appear that I may or may not be Anemic.

They took more blood at my Wednesday appointment to see if perhaps the lab made a mistake.  I hope they did.  I am still waiting to hear back.

Plain and simple now, I need to lose weight.

Honestly, that IS the KEY factor to everything.

If I could go back to my normal weight, @108 – 110, then all of these health problems will most likely be resolved.  Read: will be resolved.

Everything has gone downhill in the health department since I broke my foot in March 2016.

With said broken foot, I became immobile.  I hadn’t broken anything before and to go from semi-active to immobility, well, that scared the hell out of me.

So I took extra care to rest on the weekends, to repair and restore.

And um, if you do that for 2 years and eat, rest and enjoy a margarita or two on the weekends, Hello Weight gain!

For me, now, it is a matter of rewiring how I spend my time off.

My weight gain isn’t because of age or a drop in my metabolism (at least not yet!), it is 100% my own doing and therefore fixable.

If you use FaceBook you too receive those reminders about what you have posted in years past.

Um.  I personally would kick my own ass if it were possible for ever complaining @ weighing 115 pounds!!!   Geez, the young are so damn stupid. hahahaha

And in regards to work, I feel like I am getting paid really well to do 1/2 of what I used to do.  I don’t like it, but it is my fault for voicing my thoughts.  Management has lessened my work load to help me not feel overwhelmed.  Personally, I feel demoted and not quite sure what I am supposed to do and what I am not supposed to do sometimes.

I don’t know how to un-ring this bell.  To go back to how things were is not possible. I tried and that was nixed.

I may or may not be too ambitious for my own good, and a little ahead of my time (quite often!).

Nonetheless, I want to create something really great for myself.

So many friends have told me over the years ~ Just marry a guy who is crazy rich and spend his money to create whatever you want.

Small problem, I want to create something great on my own.

I may not ever reach the heights I dream of on a daily basis, but, for better or worse, whatever I achieve will be solely because of M-E.


PS ~ I don’t even use Twitter or any other hash tagging sites.   I just love my own “clever” hash tags. hahahahaha


50 Is On the Horizon in My World!


I am turning 47 this year. #2018

Holy mother of….

I don’t have a problem with 47.

I do however; have a problem with the big 5-0.

I never thought I’d get there.

As in, in my mind, I guess I thought I would always be and feel and look 40 something.


(one half) * (1 century) = 50.

Holy goodness.

A half of a century, I will have been alive for a half of a freaking century!!

D@mn.  Are you *bleeping* kidding me?

Geez.  2018 just showed up a minute ago, and now here we are and it is January 28th.

Time needs to slow the hell down!

Side note.  One way to slow down time is to disconnect completely from social media and smart phones and the likes.

I have managed to do 24 to 36 hour and slightly longer “fasts”.

I am working my way up to one month!  #For Real.

You would not believe how much you can get done, or how long your days are when you disconnect completely and focus on the now.

Like I said, I’ll be 47 this year.

That gives me 3 years to really continue to focus on growing my knowledge base before I reach 50.

  • Health/fitness wise.
  • Business wise.

Holy crap!  I just saw a commercial for AARP.

In 3 years, I will be eligible for AARP.

OMG.  That totally sucks!!  Are you *bleeping* kidding me?!

AARP should REALLY update their eligibility minimum age based on today’s life expectancy span!

But, I digress.

I know age and getting older bothers people.

It bothers the hell out of me.

I listen and talk with many people who are honest enough to say… WHAT THE HELL?! THIS TOTALLY SUCKS!!!  And then some.

I cannot speak for anyone else, but for me, I don’t like aging so quickly because there are still things I’d like to accomplish in my lifetime, on at least two fronts specifically, plus sooooo many others.

I am currently focusing on these two things for the next 3 years….

  • Health/being crazy fit for “my age”.
  • And business.

I have so much to offer, and I have so much to give…. I just need to disconnect, focus, and get on with it.

Maybe by doing so, I will actually enjoy turning 50.


And that is a mighty *BIG* maybe!!!hahahaha
















I Am Sooooo Going to Be Burning the Midnight Oil Tonight!

But you know what?

I am cool with that.

I brought home 3 work projects for the weekend that I wanted to complete.

I am going to be able to pull off two of the three, with the third one being completed tomorrow while in the office.

Again, I am cool with that.

I always think I can do so much at home on a weekend…but then my life butts in and I am like – Oh, that is right.  I have other things to do to be a completely well-rounded individual who has to do everything for herself because she has no partner! hahahaha

This weekend I have been in heaven, times ten.

I haven’t gotten so much done in my home in such a loooooooong time.

I moved into my new condo a month and a half ago, and to date, I hadn’t done much outside of the basics (unpack items needed for true survival).

But, holy cow, now I finally feel so complete and centered and happy since I have been actively making my place MY place.

This is the first weekend in such a loooong time that I actually left my home and drove anywhere.

And normally I LOVE DRIVING!

But with commuting daily for work in the DC area, which really is up there with the commute/traffic of NY & LA, usually once I arrive home on a Friday, I do not leave again until Monday.

There are so many great things that I hope to pull off for my home in the next few weeks/months.  I cannot wait to share!

And there are so many more great things I hope to learn in the next few years to further my career and shape my future.

Long story short, sometime you need to “play hooky” to bring your VERY BEST self to the table.


Go Ahead. Make My Day. Card Me.

Friday I bought a pack of cigarettes.  Not smart, I know.

The clerk was ringing me up.  She was ready to hit the final key that would prompt me to insert my card for payment, when she stopped.

She looked at me funny and said – I have carded you before, right?  You are old enough to buy cigarettes, right?

I assured her, that although my actions weren’t all that smart, I was indeed old enough to purchase cigarettes.

She was relieved and said – Oh good.  I certainly did not want to sell to someone who was underage.

Yesterday I went to the ABC store and bought a bottle of Jose Cuervo tequila.

Again, prior to hitting the final key to prompt me for payment, this clerk also asked – You are old enough to make this purchase, right?

Once again, I assured her that I was more than old enough to make the purchase and she too was thankful that she wasn’t selling to someone who was underage.

I mean, who hit the jackpot?  Um, me.  Within 72 hours I was “carded” twice!

Granted, I obviously am not all that bright based on my purchases, but I must still look young.

Now before you try to rain on my parade by pointing out that there are signs posted stating….


We Reserve the Right

I’ll take it!

After all, I am pushing 46.  So to be mistaken for a 30ish year old…I am good with that.

I mean like I am really, really, really good with that.

That is all I’ve got.

It is my birthday month so I figure I should really enjoy the gifts each day holds.

Plus, as I told my dad last night – I need to relish this because, um, it cannot go on for very much longer! hahaha




Would You Like a 2 Liter Bottle of Soda With Your Order?

Um, no thank you.

I know I have been complaining (bitching) about work lately, and I would like to retract previously aired complaints.

I complain when I feel frustrated, when I feel like I have given a lot and it seems to be going unnoticed.

I do not give to get and my work MO is pretty much work as if you own the company, while trying to keep some balance in your life.

I still have trouble with that second part. hahaha

As of late, my bosses (1 & 2) have made it more than worth my while to remain where I am doing what I do.  Wind blowing and appreciated beyond belief!

I really do work at a great firm, and I work for great bosses and I love what I do and the people I work with….with the exception of the receptionist whom, unfortunately, I hired myself.  Oh, and I still dislike my pain in the @ss commute. hahaha

As for my helper, I was told – She is a really nice person (and she is) and she is a great receptionist (and she is that too) but outside of that….she really wants to help, but….

Ok, so I really and truly thought – I can straight up train anyone.  Guess what?  Not so much.

We shall see what the other side of tax season holds.  She still has time to turn things around.  But that is an inside job. I cannot make you care about the quality of your work nor can I make you care about our firm as much as I do.

Speaking of which, yesterday, I made a point to show all of the accountants who have had to work on Saturdays for a month now just how much I care about and appreciate them.

I sent them an email about noon….


Lunch is on me peeps! Enjoy.


I enjoy working with each and every one of you and I love my job and bosses!

1 Italian sandwich (for Boss #1)

1 Chicken Parmesan sandwich with light cheese (for Boss #2)

1 chicken, apple and something salad for (Co-worker who is specifically trying to watch their weight)

The rest is for all to share and should hit upon each and everyone’s taste!

Happy Saturday people and soon enough I will be working Saturdays AND Sundays and all will be right in the world.

Enjoy and I appreciate you, Happy Valentine’s Day Weekend!!


I ordered and had delivered…..sandwiches, salads, multiple pizzas (to include veggie for our vegetarian), garlic knots and multiple desserts from Domino’s Pizza.

Boy they were all surprised!

And they were each extremely appreciative.  They emailed me separately to say thank you in their own way.

I love doing things like that.

And because of my bosses’ generosity towards me, I was able to.

They have been generous to the others too; it is not all about me.

But if you do something great for me, I am going to want to do something great for you that you are not expecting, just to say – Thank you.  I really appreciate what you have done.

From what I have heard, there is a lot of pizza left over.  So, I am going to reap rewards from what I sown. hahaha

Happy Valentine’s Day Weekend, I hope you totally surprise someone who has done something that has meant a lot to you.

It doesn’t have to be big, just from the heart.










For The Love of God, Every Breath You Take!!

Although I love the song Every Breath You Take by The Police, mama is getting ready to call the real police.

I finally solved a mystery that has been puzzling me for some time now.

I was woken up by my cats this morning at 2:30 am.

That is not unusual.  That is par for the course.

I normally get to go back to sleep within 15 minutes of petting.

And then I heard it.

The dude upstairs was on the move.

Either he is a really large guy or he is very heavy footed.

On a positive note, I take great care in being oh so quiet when the building is asleep as to not disturb my downstairs neighbors.  See.  I can take lemons and make lemonade!

Anyway, I hear him on the move, roll my eyes and begin breathing deeply and slowing thinking I can calm my way back to sleep.

After about 15 minutes I hear it.

Unbelievable, the dude either turned on his TV or music because I hear a rhythmic bass or treble or something on a continuous loop!

How effing rude can you be?

This has happened before too, always in the late, late hours of the night or if you prefer, the early earliest of hours in the morning.

He must travel, because it only happens in stints, brief periods of time and not 24/7.

I cannot tell you how many times I have had to stop myself from marching upstairs and banging on his door and giving him a piece of my mind for being so rude and thoughtless.

Well guess what mama figured out as she was breathing deeply and slowing thinking I could calm my way back to sleep?

That is not music or the TV, he is freaking SNORING!

Holy crap! What in the hell am I supposed to do with that?

I was sleeping on my couch because you can do that when you are an adult and single.

Well home boy, and yes he must be a HE with that kind of snoring, must not have been able to sleep and moved to his couch because he is an adult too, and now he is obviously sleeping soundly when I AM NOT.

Every breath he takes makes me want to walk up there and punch him.

I am not in a relationship.  I shouldn’t have to deal with this!

And if I was in a relationship with someone who snored, the first snore and it would have been over.  I like my sleep.

I know people who are married to snorers.  And I think and have said, for the love of God, didn’t you know about this early on and how on earth could you have signed up for this life sentence on purpose? hahaha

Hold up, dude must be awake because the snoring stopped.

Oh never mind.  False alarm.

How on earth I can hear him snoring I do not know.  I have occasionally been woken up by an iPhone alarm thinking, that is strange, I don’t remember setting my alarm.

I didn’t.  It was his alarm.

Outside of these two things in the dead of night or early, early morning, I hear absolutely nothing.

No convos, no showers, no nothing.

Well I do hear him walking, but outside of THOSE three things, I hear nothing.

Now that I know what is going on, I will not call the police.

I am seriously thinking about moving though. hahaha

So I am up.  Now what?

I could exercise.  I could ride my Harley.  I could go grocery shopping.

I could…I really think it would be best if I leave my house for a little while before the police come to pick me up for smothering someone!!! hahaha


Happy Halloween People!

I certainly hope this was my trick for the day.

Online Dating. Yikes. Here I Come.

Monday morning I did something I never thought I would do.

For years, five to be precise, a handful close to me have tried to encourage me to try online dating.

Nope not for me.

Well Monday morning I decided to give a go.

That’s a pretty big deal in my world.

But I am trying to change things up, do things differently, explore and say yes to life more.

First off, I will never be able to be facebook friends with anyone I may meet on this online dating journey, nor tell them about my blog because I’ll be sharing the journey with you and I am pretty sure that might not be so cool in their eyes. hahahaha

But seriously, I won't speak about specific gents, just my side of experiences.

When you set up your profile (and mine is not complete yet) you begin by adding a picture and writing something about yourself.

This is my initial pic –


I copy and pasted my about me page from my blog and answered five questions.

I can’t remember any of the questions except the first one.

Are you ok with someone being messy?

Hell no!

The last step was to pick three profile pictures to gauge the type of guys you find attractive.

There were guys ages 26 to 66 or there about.

I am not going to lie; a lot of those 30 something year old dudes caught my eye.

But alas I stayed within my age range; I didn’t want to come across as a creeper.

I didn’t realize the profile pictures I was looking at were real, but good news, one of the dudes I liked liked me back.

Now I have to go back and fill out the rest of my profile because they don’t know…like how tall I am, or what I am looking for, or my horoscope sign and so forth. hahahaha

But what is really cool, a dude I liked based solely on his picture turned out to be is 49, drives a Harley, drives a jeep (I think according to the pic), rock climbs, doesn’t have children, and oh yeah, he’s hot.

I am not saying we would mesh, but I find it intriguing that there are good-looking dudes out there with similar interests as me that had I not gotten out of my comfort zone and tried online dating, I potentially would never meet.

In 24 hours I have received 141 likes (that’s better than anything I have ever gotten on facebook!!!! hahahaha) and 18 messages.

Now 90% of those will probably do nothing for me, but it still makes a gal feel good after being out of the game for so long.

Oh, and now I REALLY have incentive to get my body back in tip-top shape as soon as possible!! hahahaha

The moral of the story…don’t poo poo what you have never tried BUT only try it if and when you are ready.

I’m ready.


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