I feel somewhat lost right now.
Not lost as in down and depressed.
Lost like ~ well hells bells, I didn’t see that coming.
Um. Now what??!!
I feel lost in two areas: me & work.
In regards to me, I have so much work to do health wise.
Holy schmoly. Where to begin?
I FINALLY received some good news from my doctor this last Wednesday.
On my own, I managed to drop my cholesterol & sugar numbers a lot without medication.
My physical last year did not go well blood work wise and my doctor wanted to put me on medication.
I said ~ No. Not yet. Let me try to fix this on my own first.
She was not happy with my decision, and I said ~ This is my life, and only my vote counts. I am going to try this on my own first.
My latest blood work shows that I have course corrected my cholesterol & sugar numbers (not perfect, but pretty damn good progress) on my own, enough so that my doctor does not see the need for medication at present or the near future (if I continue on this course correction path).
But. It does appear that I may or may not be Anemic.
They took more blood at my Wednesday appointment to see if perhaps the lab made a mistake. I hope they did. I am still waiting to hear back.
Plain and simple now, I need to lose weight.
Honestly, that IS the KEY factor to everything.
If I could go back to my normal weight, @108 – 110, then all of these health problems will most likely be resolved. Read: will be resolved.
Everything has gone downhill in the health department since I broke my foot in March 2016.
With said broken foot, I became immobile. I hadn’t broken anything before and to go from semi-active to immobility, well, that scared the hell out of me.
So I took extra care to rest on the weekends, to repair and restore.
And um, if you do that for 2 years and eat, rest and enjoy a margarita or two on the weekends, Hello Weight gain!
For me, now, it is a matter of rewiring how I spend my time off.
My weight gain isn’t because of age or a drop in my metabolism (at least not yet!), it is 100% my own doing and therefore fixable.
If you use FaceBook you too receive those reminders about what you have posted in years past.
Um. I personally would kick my own ass if it were possible for ever complaining @ weighing 115 pounds!!! Geez, the young are so damn stupid. hahahaha
And in regards to work, I feel like I am getting paid really well to do 1/2 of what I used to do. I don’t like it, but it is my fault for voicing my thoughts. Management has lessened my work load to help me not feel overwhelmed. Personally, I feel demoted and not quite sure what I am supposed to do and what I am not supposed to do sometimes.
I don’t know how to un-ring this bell. To go back to how things were is not possible. I tried and that was nixed.
I may or may not be too ambitious for my own good, and a little ahead of my time (quite often!).
Nonetheless, I want to create something really great for myself.
So many friends have told me over the years ~ Just marry a guy who is crazy rich and spend his money to create whatever you want.
Small problem, I want to create something great on my own.
I may not ever reach the heights I dream of on a daily basis, but, for better or worse, whatever I achieve will be solely because of M-E.
PS ~ I don’t even use Twitter or any other hash tagging sites. I just love my own “clever” hash tags. hahahahaha