My new best friend this tax season has been Starbucks’ Nitro Cold Brew with Sweet Cream.
Don’t let the title fool you.
There is nothing sweet about it.
Most of the time.
It depends on who on the SB staff makes it.
Nonetheless, it IS the extreme opposite of my 10++ year BFF, the Starbucks’ Mocha Frappuccino.
For a while there, I have you all know, I DID get to the point of ditching my daily Starbucks’ fraps for good because I was exploring Daily Harvest Smoothies.
And OMG, they are the bomb! AND healthy!
However, I put my account on hold this last month because……tax season really happened.
Side note, I work at a CPA firm and um, there is a tax deadline coming up this Monday in the US.
I really hope you have filed your taxes by now so you can be so done with that and get on to living!
I adjusted to the new (for me) Starbucks’ Nitro Cold Brew with Sweet Cream for two reasons –
- Holy Cow, that drink packs some energy (and mama needs energy right about now)!
- Also, calorie count wise, Starbucks’ Nitro Cold Brew with Sweet Cream = 70 calories per drink (and in this past week, on a lot of the days, I have had 2 per day). Whereas, the Mocha Frap = 410 per drink, and although I do not have whip cream on mine, I have asked for extra pumps of mocha, so it is all the same calorie wise (and in all past years for the last 10++ years, right about this time, I have had 2 per day as well).
The skinny on the matter at hand.
I have been energized between the Nitro SB cold brew and smoking, my appetite has been suppressed and I eat much less and gone to bed several night without dinner (not on purpose, nor bragging or encouraging this method, just too tired and nature took over)..
Instead of gaining weight like some others on staff may or may not have done, I have lost weight (8 ibs, only 35 more to go!).
I might not be the smartest, nor put in the most hours, but hands down, I am 100% the most physically active person on staff during tax season. Which for me is a good thing. If I cannot be active, I would not last for long.
But my coping mechanisms need to change, or else I am going to die of cancer.
And according to all the things I have read, smoking is only a fraction (be it large) of the equation of my lifestyle that will cause me to develop some type of life threatening cancer.
A couple of days ago, while taking a shower and brushing my teeth (while in the shower), I gagged when brushing my tongue (normal for me while trying to remove any bacteria).
When I gagged, I had a shooting pain run down the right side of my body, from my shoulder blade to my right side belly (my entire back side torso).
It was painful and immobilized me for at least a minute.
Which is a very long time when experiencing anything but pleasure and/or happiness.
My thoughts…for real….
Is this what a heart attack feels like?
Is this what a stroke feels like?
WTF is this?
This freaking hurts!!
And lastly, OMG, it is tax season, and I do not think I can go into work today, what do I do….
When I could move, I sat down on the side of the tub and collected myself.
I do not know what it was.
I sincerely hope I make changes and that this never happens again – because it really did hurt, it immobilized me, it scared me to death, and it sure as hell got my attention!
I am not 50 years old yet.
But at some point in life (which I have officially hit this year), we all pass over the threshold of I am invincible into the realm of holy crap if I do not change this is really going to dork up my life (if it has not already done so) in such a very bad way!
My dad’s wife passed away during this tax season unexpectedly, so he is always on my mind and I reach out often.
My stepfather is battling cancer, again unexpectedly, and I sense that it is much more serious than he or my mom let on, so they are always on my mind too, and I reach out often.
For me, after this tax deadline comes and goes (and it is my greatest hope that things go as well as possible, in particular, anything that I have a hand in), I honestly need to reevaluate how I am going about things and what it is I am trying to do with my life.
Because right now, I am not handling things in a way that is going to turn out well for me in the long run. At all.