Over the course of the last four and a half years, I have leapt, acquiesced and dithered in my search for meaningful and fulfilling work.
And yes, I do believe work can be meaningful and fulfilling.
I really enjoy the accounting realm.
That was one step in the right direction.
However, I feel like I have outgrown my current position and there is no room for advancement unless some things change, which would benefit them, but unlikely to happen.
That and um, the raise we spoke about happening after tax season, hasn’t happened.
And that wouldn’t be a problem, but the whole let’s arrange a time to sit down and talk about this hasn’t happened yet either.
But still, that’s not the worse part.
What really made my heart heavy was when my boss complained about the overtime they had to pay me.
His exact words to me: “Is this the last of your overtime? We have never paid anyone in your position this much overtime.”
I was totally dumbfounded, and hurt.
When I first came on board they all, bosses and co-workers alike, over emphasized the importance of overtime during tax season, and how they had had problems in the past of getting the people in my position to commit.
I assured them that it wouldn’t be a problem with me. And it wasn’t.
And I am not too crazy about how it was handled.
Granted I shouldn’t take it personally, as my boss isn’t thrilled about paying his daughter either.
If you are wondering how in one post I can be like ~ my boss gave me this!
And then in another post say, my boss said what I shared here.
Well that because I have two bosses.
One is gregarious and generous, and one is nice, but I guess focused more on the bottom line.
I get it.
But I don’t understand it.
I guess because I don’t operate that way.
That and I have had the experience of working for two bosses for close to ten years who were very generous to their employees AND who did very well for themselves at the same time.
That’s what I know and trust.
So now I am going to try the last corner in the picture above – I’m strategizing.
I can do far more than I am doing now, and I know that.
I want money, for basic needs, saving for the future, and enjoying life, and I know that.
Perhaps I can work with what I have now and add a thing or two, or perhaps I need to go in a new direction. That I don’t know yet.
But I am going to take my time, because there is another aspect of me that is important to me too, although I have a funny way of showing it at present.
The yoga studio who used me in their flyer to advertise their upcoming Aerial Yoga Teacher Training has agreed to set up a payment plan for me so that I can take the training in July.
Yet another step in the right direction.
So my minute could very well take the rest of the year to realize, but I am working on it!